I’ve always wanted a big family, a yard full of kids but I wanted it to be on a farm. Cows, chickens, kids walking barefoot collecting eggs and walking through horse poop the whole dang thing. I thought I would homeschool them and never want to leave their side.
I realized pretty quickly though after my first that I needed a job to stay sane. I needed my kids in bed at a certain time so I had some peace and quiet at the end of my day. I actually counted down the days until kindergarten started to be able to go to the grocery store by myself again.
After my second child the third came some quick it was always either all three of them with me or all three of them at school. Three kids can be rough especially three rambunctious boys.
Finally having my daughter it was like a sweet treat. I still dreaded the days my partner went to work and it was me against the four of them but at least the days with the boys at school were peaceful and quiet.
Today my partner and I had counseling something we started a few months ago as the noise from the kids seemed to start coming to bed with us and our communication isn’t the best these days. Seven years together, six years of friendship before that, four kids, things aren’t always a walk in the park.
Today’s session was actually pretty good its like when he hears what I’ve been saying for months from the counselors mouth he can listen and process vs when I say it and he hears it in this evil condescending voice.
I was already dreading the afternoon when he’d be at work but I know that being alone with the kids is a challenge I need to overcome and if anything I can make it enjoyable.
I took chicken out for dinner and took a quick hour nap before I needed to walk up the street to the younger boys’ bus stop. I woke up feeling good and ready for the rest of the day.
My daughter knew exactly where her shoes were but she seemed to be taking her time putting them on as you heard the Velcro close and then be ripped back off again and again before she finally fastened them securely to her feet. I could feel my patience slipping away as I didn’t want to be late for the bus.
We walked down the stairs and there is her scooter in the hall and she begs to bring it for our short walk. I said we are already running late and she reasons back to me that on the scooter she would be faster so I said yes. A smile was already radiating on her face before she heard the ending of the s. She was so happy scooting up the street stopping before the streets until I was there for us to safely cross together.
While we waited the twenty minutes she scooted up and down the street fast as lightening giving me a heart attack every time she rode down the hill again as she declared to me every time she fell “I’m okay mom, “it’s okay mom.’ Not a single fear in her but she knew how badly I didn’t want her to get hurt. Even after falling down scrapping her elbow and getting blood on her light pink pants she smiled. These are the moments that remind me why I longed for a family.
After the boys got off the bus we walked down the street to the store for me to get some drinks and everyone picked out a snack for behaving because after all I am the fun mom.
While we was there I found a BOGO deal for a frozen meal with chicken, noodles and veggies all in one. I scrapped making the chicken I had waiting for me in the fridge until tomorrow their dad is the cook anyways and grabbed that instead.
Birds Eye Voila Skillet Meals Garlic Chicken
While I “cooked” my eight year old came over to the sink with some dishes telling me how kind his new teacher is and all of his new friends in class which makes it easier for him to be in a good mood. He wanted to help and do some dishes, he said it was actually fun. We chatted while he washed spilling a bunch of water out of the sink but I had said nothing because I knew he was proud of himself. I didn’t even tell him about the dishes I needed to go and wash again (haha).
Supper was done by 530 it only cost 5.67 cents and the kids all asked for seconds and I was feeling real good about myself. Around 8 that precious daughter of mine that never seems to go to sleep on time came and curled up next to me and was out by 8 o’ clock.
We might not have that farm yet but what we do have is each other and they have a mom that will never give up!
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